Im a freshman and im dating a senior
Okay, fine, our “kid” is a dog named Kitty, but WHATEVER.Basically, I like to brag to her that I was always right and we laugh now about it, though at the time I was in a very dark place. Anyway, years later I’d find out that I also have a rare sleep disorder known as Idiopathic Hypersomnia (IH) – basically it’s Narcolepsy’s bitch of a little sister, plus am ridiculously anemic meaning that with these conditions in combination – I sleep constantly.I slept all the time, starting doing terribly in my classes, and gave up on all of the things I’d always loved. Depression just hit me at a weird time since IH onset tends to be in the teenage/young adult years.My friends began to get tired of my depressing conversations and I grew into somewhat of an introvert for a while. Even though, at the time, my life was one humongous clusterfuck of disappointment, sadness, and a lack of acceptance, I feel like I possess superhuman strength for having made it out of that time in my life and for making it thus far into the newer and happier part of my life that is now.If you didn’t already know this about me, I was raised in Tennessee and though the official stereotype of the general south is “EWWW, QUEERS! YEE-HAW, YA’LL.” I’d have to say that though there are very hateful people here, I have never been threatened or hurt based on my sexuality, though I have been occasionally banned from the reindeer games of my comrades or made to feel extremely unwelcome or uncomfortable, though I am exceptionally awkward and some of the perceived discomfort may honestly be due to my perception and overall discomfort in social situations.Actually when people from other places discover that I am from Tennessee and am obviously gay, some have said things like “And they really haven’t hung you yet?The main allies I immediately had when coming out were my brother, a few “out” friends, and a few other supportive friends.
I talked to her about my confusion and admitted that I liked her and shit was good for a while: she admitted she liked me too.
I never claimed to have a “typical” story, either in discovery or in coming out, but I know that I really had never considered women as an option pre-Brandi, and had never felt an attraction to the same sex.
For a long time, I felt that I may be asexual, because I did not feel attracted to any person of either gender, but I was not fully open to the “taboo” lesbian that was living inside of my brain and also had beachfront property in my heart.
It’s just not something I see ever happening, especially now that I have discovered a lasting and deep love and connection with Brandi, my first and only love- girl or otherwise.
I know some of you “hardened” ladies out there will think “Well, Kerry’s young.